Standing outside the bar because ten minutes early and he’s ten minutes late, awkwardly texting my sister and picking at the rosemary in the planter next to me.
sometimes i’m really embarrassed by how many feelings i have
I never know what to talk about to new mothers, so I always ask how old the baby is and when they tell me, I croon “awwww that’s such a wonderful age!” NO MATTER WHAT AGE THEY TELL ME.
"Oh yeah dude, I love that free shit and I’m not even Jewish"
Convinced that the only way I can have a social life as a 20-something is if I date. Fuck.Yet, as my friend put it: “Dating is an easy solution to finding someone to have a beer with but more than one date is the hard part.”
As someone who used to be (and still can be at times) really quiet and shy and nervous around new people, dating has given me people skills like you would not believe. I complain about it a lot, but ultimately the good outweighs the bad. Especially when the good is really really great. It’s given me skills in small talk, maintaining eye contact to create a connection with people, and being generally charming with smiling, joking, and laughing —> all of which I use extensively in my professional, academic, and personal pursuits.
Moving to a new city, dating has also allowed me to explore and have unique experiences that continue to surprise my classmates who have lived here for years. Like being invited to a secret outdoor concert held in a neighborhood forest. We laid on the grass next to a creek, watching these bands play acoustically by candlelight. One time I went on a picnic date to see an outdoor showing of Psycho that was projected onto the wall of a historic hotel’s grassy courtyard. He showed up at my house with a cooler stocked with craft beer and homemade brownies. So cute. The last guy I dated taught me how to rock climb and I’m going to pursue it on my own since we broke up.
i went on like 3 dates with this dude and on the third one i told him that i just wanted to be friends and he was cool with that and still continued to contact me to hang out, including asking me to be his plus one to the austin music awards next week.
he texted me again on friday and we just made plans to go to this cat meme contest tonight. Even though it is raining and cold and I woke up grumpy from my nap, I got up and ate and started to get dressed because how often can you go to something called “#kittencamp” ??
He just called saying that he’s being lame tonight and is going to unpack his boxes from his recent move instead…at first he said he was not feeling very social and when i asked if he was okay, he blamed it next on the weather. he offered to still get dinner but the whole excuses thing sounds sketchy to me so i said that’s cool if we just cancel/postpone the whole thing and he jumped at it.
he just called me five minutes later offering to meet up tomorrow morning for yoga even though when we were discussing plans yesterday, he claimed he had a music lesson he had to teach…that suddenly got canceled. sketchy dude. sketchy.